Thursday, June 5, 2008

I never cease to be amazed.

Well, God's done it again. I prayed like crazy that there would be a sense of peace and comforting at the funeral home today and even though I prayed for days about it, I was still very nervous about how things were going to be. I should have known though, that God would take care of things. Initially seeing my aunt was hard and I think I gave her the biggest, most sincere hug I've ever given anyone in my life. She gave it right back and I really feel that it was a beautiful moment. Some tears were shed, but not the uncontrollable sobbing that I thought might ensue from me. I made sure that every hug I gave today really counted. I really thought about each one and lingered a little longer than I normally would with the casual hugs I give on most occasions. I have to tell you, WOW, I felt so much love and so much joy and thankfullness fill my heart today. While it was sad to see my uncle there and not hear his laugh or his funny and sarcastic comments and while it was hard to see my aunt hurting and her siblings and mother hurting for her, there was so much love that filled that room today. I could just feel how everyone was really pulling together to stay strong. My uncle was here from Georgia, whom I only get to see once or twice a year, and although the circumstances weren't the best, it was wonderful to see him. My cousin (his son) will be arriving from Georgia tomorrow and I look forward to seeing him as well. Just being with my family and really being appreciative of each other, was a blessing. Those weren't really the things I was expecting to experience today, and yet God provided them. Although I'm sure there are some rough times ahead for my aunt, I really think that the love and support of our family is going to help her through and that the peace and comfort that God showed us today, will carry her through to better times as well. I hope my Uncle Chris could see the love there today and that he is smiling down on all of us. He was so very loved and he will never be forgotten.

1 comment:

Ellisa said...

God always knows what we need and tends to provide it. I know he will get you and your family through this.